Justice for 1- Not for All

I was relieved to see Bernie Made-off was thrown the harshest sentence possible today.

While I think his crimes were heinous, there are other crimes just as heinous that do not get as much media attention in our crime infested society.

This recent case with this animal child rapist in Oklahoma has me rendered speechless. 1 year for the rape of a five year old child? What the fuck is wrong with this judge?

http://www.google.com/hostednews/ap/article/ALeqM5gzRZ1_GyFOWEIV3k2KM9UjOEqpyQD98S20MO1

Oh the girl had conflicting statements- we have no doubt he did it, it's just a matter of being able to prove it in court. She's freaking five and traumatized. HELLO?

Hearing this man's now adult step-daughter speak about the abuse she suffered at the hands of him made me remember my own sexual abuse as a child. The threats, the mind control, the pure fear that someone bigger than you can instill in you when you are being forced to experience acts that are before your time and have no capacity to understand. I was being forced to have sex before I even knew what it was. Of course I was confused.

Rest in Peace

What a day it was yesterday. After a lovely evening celebrating with friends for my 35th birthday, I was overcome with sadness at the news of the death of Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson.

Charlie’s Angels was one of my favorite shows as a child- one of the few my mother would let me watch. I remember the days of climbing on chairs and jumping off them trying to emulate her and Linda Carter. Farrah was very brave in coming forward with her fight against cancer, and I think the criticism of her for doing so has been rather unjust.

As far as Michael goes- I’ve always remained divided. While I enjoy his music, I am not a fan of his personal antics and very much to this day believe he was guilty of molesting children even when acquitted. Nonetheless, he was a very rare talent but troubled soul and was tormented by the media hoopla. Nobody deserves to be harassed like that, and I believe a lot of the attention he received hurt him more than helped.

May these two iconic figures rest in peace and their suffering behind them.

And this is acceptable?

Sorry, but NO... not in my book. This poor girl- Mercedes Mendez was video taped or camera recorded or whatever the fuck you call it these days by a bystander and he watches this girl's pain and angst at the hands of these uncivilized broads, and he is not held legally accountable? This is like the NYPD Case where one cop allegedly raped an incapacitated victim, while his partner, allegedly stood watch.

Yet again, a scenario of violence where no one intervened appropriately yet had every opportunity to just pick up a fucking phone and call 911. I was a teenager once too. I know the stupid petty cat fight shit that goes on between girls. I still go through it with some of my less mature adult friends at soon to be 35 years old, unfortunately.

Regardless- and I don't care who may be cheating on who or what have you- there is NEVER an excuse to behave like this. EVER. And anyone who witnesses someone who is so violently assaulted as this girl was has a moral responsibility to report it and not record it like it's a photo opportunity to promote the local circus. Good for evidence, yes- which is probably what got him a free ride... but good for preventing the physical brutality he could have saved this woman? Not cool for School in the Gospel according to me. Brace yourselves- this is not pleasant.

http://www.myfoxchicago.com/dpp/news/crime/no_charges_for_videographer_in_Cell_phone_video_beating

Rape and food = Pleasure! YUMMO

I have heard some pretty egregious comments when it comes to rape, but this one surely takes the cake-pun intended.

http://jezebel.com/5269464/anti+obesity-activist-meme-roth-compares-eating-to-rape

If there are two things on this planet that are not my friend, they are the following:

1) Rape
2) Eating Disorders

This woman has 1 point I will give her credit for. Unfortunately, defense lawyers do resort to disgusting victim blaming tactics to defend their rapist scumbag clients implying that their victims experienced pleasure from their violent sexual assaults, that it was consensual, that they were drunk, on drugs, a prostitute... You name it, and I've heard the they were asking for it scenario from other survivors, to cases in the media, smack down to my very own experience and legal case with rape.

But to compare pleasure from over-indulging in food to pleasure from being sexually violated is just not something I can wrap my brain around, and the parallel defies all logic in the Gospel according to moi.

Obesity has just as many serious medical complications as Anorexia and Bulimia. To over-indulge in food consumption or as in my case, under-indulge are both equal forms of abusing a substance, even if the extremes are in opposition.

While over-indulging in food may be a temporary pleasurable fix to cope with or or hide behind emotions, I highly doubt that obese people derive pleasure from the taunts they receive by our society’s obsession and preoccupation with “THIN IS IN.” From personal experience, living with an eating disorder is pure mind torture, and I would not wish it upon my worst enemy. I did not wake up out of bed one day and decide “I think I will just become Anorexic.” Just as I am sure, people who struggle with Obesity/Binge Eating Disorder/ or Bulimia, did not wake up out of bed and say “I think I will just start eating what I want and puking it up, I think I will just start eating whatever suits my fancy, and if I become over weight, who cares?” All of my years in treatment have taught me that many of these illnesses are while not always necessarily the case, often genetically and biologically based- much like alcoholism or drug abuse. That is not to say that behavior modification with a qualified professional can't turn it around, but she need not be so harsh in the manner she addresses people who struggle with eating disorder related issues.

It is also a widely published statistic that victims of sexual assault can experience sexual arousal from a rape. It is not uncommon at all, especially in a fight-or-flight experience. The human body is wired to experience sexual pleasure. This in no way suggests that the victim invited, welcomed, or deserved such a vile and invasive crime to be inflicted upon them.

This woman clearly lacks any understanding of sexual assault and the devastating conditions survivors can develop- Rape Trauma Syndrome, PTSD, etc. She also is not a “Registered Dietitian” and has no official legal license to be counseling anyone what they should be putting in their mouths.

There is a new eating disorder out there referred to as EDNOS- Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified that does not fit the medical criteria for Anorexia or Bulimia- the only two official eating disorders recognized by the DSM-V. Not that I should judge given my own struggles with Anorexia- but a chick who claims to be a “Nutritional Counselor” who “May not eat until after 3:PM” unless she’s had a work out sure as hell seems to me to fit the category for EDNOS or Disordered Eating- no matter what her weight is.

What is wrong with New York's Finest?

Finest, MY ASS. I thought I had just heard it all after the 2 cops who raped the East Village woman. Then, I awake to this...

http://www.nydailynews.com/news/ny_crime/2008/12/06/2008-12-06_brooklyn_cop_indicted_in_michael_mineo_s.html

This is just terrible. AWFUL. I am divided between sadness and rage. So this 24 year old dude was smoking a joint... SO WHAT? Have you ever smoked pot? I have. Does that mean I deserve to be brutally sodomized with a baton by a police officer who busts me for getting high?

It just incenses me that law enforcement is supposed to protect us, and then I hear these stories, and it's such a slap in the face. Who are sexual assault victims supposed to go to for help when the people who we are taught to seek assistance from are the ones committing such heinous acts?

What a way to make me laugh!

A friend of mine who has been through hell of her own in this so called "system" of ours informed me of a hilarious link she found on one of her favorite satire websites about a recent case of a civilian's response to Jury Duty. After a very rough week of crappy rainy weather here in NYC, I laughed so hard, my soda was pouring out of my nose, I nearly peed my pants, and everyone at work had to ask me if I was ok.

http://www.dlisted.com/node/31852

Now... I don't give a rat's ass about what the US Gov says about how it's everyone's civil responsibility to appear for Jury duty. News Flash Uncle Sam... for victims like myself of crime and going through a horrible court case of her own, this rule should be exempt for me. 5 years ago, after trying to get out of it I don't know how many times, they made me go to it anyway and said I could not be excused. What the fuck?

So I went, with my knitting needles and my books, hoping that I would just sit there all day and be excused. Nope... Not with my luck. I got picked for a mock jury panel.

A panel where we all heard some details of a case where this psycho dude wacked some poor man over the head with a baseball bat on East 72nd Street and 3rd. The lawyer's defense strategy? He's a vietnam vet and has paranoia and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and was having a panic attack. Double my luck to have to be a potential juror for selection on a case like this.

Douche bag... I have PTSD. BAD PTSD + Panic attacks & flashbacks. In fact, I had one today during a nasty thunder storm. Do I bash people's heads in with baseball bats or rape little girls and say "I have PTSD... It's ok." Ummmm... NO.

So in the round of questioning on prospective jurors for consideration, this dumb ass defense lawyer calls on me and asks me... "Do you think that because my client is here today, that he automatically is here because he did something wrong?" DUDE... did u go to law school? We just heard he assaulted a man with a baseball bat. DUH!!!!!!?????

Everyone MUST Listen to Faryl Smith's new CD

I know all the hype on Susan Boyle has taken the world by storm... and don't get me wrong... she is FABULOUS. I am tired of all these people in the media criticizing her for taking advantage of makeover opportunities. The Gospel according to me says good for her and you GO GIRL and blow that arrogant Simon Cowell out of the water!

But... as a huge Ellen Degeneres fan who tapes her program every day, I came across this extraordinary talented young lady who was a contestant on last seasons Britain's Got Talent that I never heard about who performed on her show. She didn't win the talent contest, but In my opinion, at 13 years old, she sure should have! Just watching her sing made me cry.

I would strongly recommend her newly released CD "FARYL" to anyone with PTSD, anyone with a child who can't sleep, or just anyone anywhere who takes comfort in a voice that sounds like it sprung out of heaven... FROM A 13 YEAR OLD! AMAZING!