I do not have Anorexia

Claims a former Ms. Universe Contestant. I saw these pictures and I about hit the floor. I have had Anorexia since I was 12. I can spot them from the nose bleed section at Yankee Stadium.

http://news.sky.com/skynews/Home/World-News/Miss-Universe-Australia-Finalist-Stephanie-Naumoska-Says-She-Is-Not-Anorexic/Article/200904415268555?lpos=World_News_First_Home_Page_Feature_Teaser_Region_0&lid=ARTICLE_15268555_Miss_Universe_Australia_Finalist_Stephanie_Naumoska_Says_She_Is_Not_Anorexic

I don't mean to be a hypocrite about something so serious, but this is the classic sign of Anorexics... denial, refusal to maintain a normal body weight, and inability see their emaciated appearance. I was that girl. I still struggle with not seeing how thin I look to others, but at least I am in therapy and recognize I have a problem.

I used to think that Kiera Knightly had an eating disorder but now I am inclined to believe her that she doesn't. I don't think she would have the stamina do all those action movies if she were so malnourished, and she's spotted around London eating normally in restaurants all the time- something most people who have eating disorders do not.

This chick I don't believe. Nobody who eats six healthy meals a day looks like this. She's full of shit.

This is America...

My Darling Father has a quote- “This is America, you are entitled to your opinion.”

Such was the quote he issued to many Anorexia expert therapists who have treated me over the years to sibling rivalry fights, as well as when me and my brothers got older and we all had our own views of the mess of the world we live in and how it should it work. I guess a lot of it was to keep the peace.

But this brings me to my feelings on the recent Ms.USA pageant, where Ms. California lost to Ms. North Carolina. I didn’t see the pageant, as I do not feel that viewing these events are good for me for obvious reasons- beauty, bikinis, and who is the skinniest, most perfect and most talented. I’ve tortured my life and my health with such ideals. I’ve starred in the movie. I do not need to watch a mirror of myself on TV

I do firmly believe however, that Ms. California’s opinion on Gay Marriage when asked her views on it has been unfairly ostracized by not only the judges of the pageant themselves, but the media as well. I can‘t say whether her answer cost her the crown, as I did not see it. I really don’t care.

But I did see some news clips about it, and my feelings are the following:

This is a USA pageant. Last time I checked, America is a free country that supports freedom of speech and standing up for what you believe in, regardless of whether or not public opinion agrees with it. Criticizing someone for exercising this right defies what we as a country stand for. I love how Obama said the same thing she did about not being for it and is treated like a rock star, but she gets death threats. NICE!

Personally, I am for Gay Marriage- as I have many gay friends. Go ahead my Catholic church group friends and vilify me for feeling this way. I don’t vilify you if you agree with Ms. California. My point is, she owned the right to express her opinion. Kuddos to Angie Harmon for defending her.

Such a wonderful Boy!

This story of Phillip Markoff is just disgusting. I don't even want to get into the details, but he is accused of assualting and killing women who posted Ads on Craigslist.

Here's what pisses me off...I could give a flying fuck whether or not he's a medical student or the next Patron Saint according to Pope Benedict.

MANY, MANY smart people who are lawyers, doctors, priests, and teachers- even Mother's and fathers rape and kill people. Sometimes, their own flesh and blood. No one wants to believe that it is far more often than not the neighbor next door who seems as common and routine as the fed ex man are the ones responsible for committing such atrocities. Just look at Sandra Cantu.

I understand that people have a hard time understanding why people do bad things to good people. I ask myself everyday, why did the people do what they did to me?

But the fact is, I don't really care why, and I don't think the victims families do either. I care that this type of behavior is unacceptable and dramtically changed my life forever. I am sick of all the shrinks on TV trying to psychonalyze justifiable reasons for criminal's behavior.

And according to Mr. Markoff's fiance.... he is so wonderful and could never hurt a fly. I will be saying my rosary for this deluded alleged bride to be.

Shrinks are human too

I am very obsessed- I admit, with HBO's mini series "In treatment". It is a fabulous show chronicling the life of a middle aged therapist played by Gabriel Byrne, his relationship with his patients, his own failed marriage, and how it all affects him- prompting him to go back "In Treatment" with his former mentor, a therapist played by the fabulous actress, Diane Wiest, who also happens to be a parishioner of my church.

After reading about horrific criminal stories in the news this week, ones just too gut wrenching to mention... I got to thinking... what has happened to the people we employ to heal us to make them pursue this profession? Do they or have they battled with the same demons in some fashion as us that motivate them to sit and listen to us?

I would never dare ask, as it over-steps the boundaries of professionalism, but I couldn't help but wonder... what have they been through in their lives that makes them want to listen to fucked up people like me? (Just Kidding)

But seriously- I wonder. I think that between tonight's episodes of "In Treatment" and in my bedroom this mornng with The Today Show on in the background while getting dressed for work, it really sparked my curiosity. There I am rolling up my black tights and fastening my skirt, and I hear this really familiar voice on TV commenting on the economy and it's affect on relationships- the affect in particular, on divorced couples with children. I rush to the bedroom and stare at the TV. HOLY SHIT- it was my new shrink.

Does NYPD Blue not have better things to do?

See letter posted below to recount this outrageous hoopla.


April 11th, 2009

Environmental Control Board
Mail Adjudication Unit
68 John Street, 10th Floor
New York, New York 10038

Dear Environmental Control Board:

This morning, on my way to run to my local convenience store to purchase Cat Litter, I disposed of my trash in a public trash bin, as the ones provided by my apartment building were full, which is often the case.

Mind you, I have disposed of my garbage many times this way when the above aforementioned is the case in the decade I have resided here. In ten years, I have never been stopped, seen a sign, or issued a fine when I have done this.

It was to my utter shock when an officer stopped me and asked me for my ID. I was terribly taken aback and frightened that I had done something wrong, unbeknownst to me. He was very cocky and took his sweet time explaining to me why I was being approached, but finally told me he observed me disposing of my personal trash in a city trash bin, and fined me $100.00, while pointing to a sign that said this was illegal.

I had no knowledge of this, nor had I ever seen such a sign before. Linings in the trash bins and weather conditions can easily hide this. Had I known that this was not allowed, I NEVER would have proceeded to dispose of my trash this way both in the past and of present.

Despite my explaining to him that I truly did not know that this was the case, that I was in a hurry to attend a Religious Obligation for Holy Saturday, he took his sweet time in recording my drivers license information, and was incredibly arrogant and rude. When he finally issued me the paper fine, I asked him what I needed to do to appeal or fight it. His response was “Oh… so how in a hurry are you now?” I was indeed in a hurry, as I had to be on the Upper West Side at 11:00AM and all of this occurred at approximately between 10:AM and 10:15AM.

I must say that as a crime survivor myself, I have to ask myself, do your officers not have anything better to do with your time than to go after people like me who made an innocent mistake and presented no danger to society? If public trash bins can not be used to dispose of trash, then what are they there for? He was a bored cop with nothing better to do with his time, probably pissed off that he has not risen above sanitation duty, and decided to get his jollies by punishing me- on a Holiday Weekend, no less.

To fine me with such an enormous citation when I explained to him over and over again that I did not know I was doing anything wrong is egregious. The least he could have done was issue me a warning, but he was unmerciful.

In conclusion, I will not and can not afford to pay this fee. I suffer from Epilepsy. Massive accidents as a result of this medical condition resulted in very serious injuries that I sustained to my teeth- injuries requiring oral reconstructive/cosmetic dental surgery that my insurance does not fully cover. I am buried in medical bills, various Dr.’s appointments, etc, and I do not have the personal time to defend my position by appearing in court at this outrageous abuse of power and injustice. I maintain my position that I honestly did not know that I was doing anything wrong, and was very alarmed and unsettled by both this incident, and the Officer’s attitude itself.

I ask in kind to please excuse me of this violation, as I state yet again, was completely unaware I committed one.

Sincerely,

Michele Pardon



State of New York, County of New York

Dated this day of April, 2009

Notary Public



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Incest Sex Slave Shoots Stepfather

I saw this link today and it really broke my heart. I know some people argue that they feel like people who rape should spend the rest of their lives in prison to live with what they did to their victims, but I do not share this view. I feel like victims of sexual assault often feel in prison enough with the overwhelming symptoms they live with of PTSD. I as sure the fuck do. I don't care what people think about my religion and it's position on Capital Punishment, but I support it for child sex offenders and all rapists- particularly this scum. I am not suggesting what she did was right and to take the law into her own hands, but I understand why she did it.

www.metro.co.uk/news/world/article.html?Sex_slave_shoots_dead_stepfather